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Katherine is Fat

31st July, 2005. 2:02 am. BE SKINNY OR DIE TRYING.....

so..... here I am again
back, even more so than when i started....
i used to be able to do three day fasts with no problem, and eat under fifty calories every other day

now... i am FAT... fat fat fat fat fat
its sick
...girls that used to be wayyy fatter than me aren't..... they are skinnier than me now

and i have to do something about it
im so sick sick sick of myself

my boyfriend dumped me, and though he said its for other reasons.... I know that its because I am not perfect enough for him.... because he is perfect and one of the best things in the world that will ever happen to me. I would be perfect if i was 89....but im not im so fat
it hurts so much.....

so im going to fast.... fast fast fast... till i die
there is no reason for me to keep living if im going to be fat
I NEED TO BE SKINNY

yeah ive lost weight before, but ive never been TINY.... tiny enough to see all of my rib bones....
thats what i want....

FASTING.... day one tomorrow....
NO MORE EATING FOR ME

Current mood: FAT.

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19th May, 2005. 10:48 am.

so im on day two of my fast....
everything is going pretty well
ADERALL IS MY LOVER!
woo hoo.... don't know what i would do without it

still need to find a prom dress that will fit around my fatness....


any news about new good pills?
especially those you can take while on a fast....

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21st April, 2005. 11:09 am.

ok so yesterday.... i was really bad....
so bad
so bad
im not even going to explain to you

last night i accidently made the mistake of telling my mom that i haden't (gross) i guess "made a bowl movement" since sunday
and she freaked out and gave me like for lax.... and i was like way cool

shes been really cool after our little argument the other day.... shes like actually starting to be one of my friends and not so much my mom
its nice too cause shes on a diet too.... so like when i don't eat she just gets jealous...
way cool that she isn't stuffing food down my throat....

but anyway.... im gonna be better today
so far ive only had some water today
so well see how i am

the lax are making me want to explode

be strong,
Katherine

P.S. sorry for those of you who imed me yesterday and i didn't respond... i was kind of away from the computer for most of it... but im me again and i will respond
Londoncalling316

Current mood: cranky.
Current music: I wanna be a Supermodel.

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